Dream Mandalas

Oct 8, 2005

I was laying on my tummy and was lost in thought, thinking, "this is
a dream about dreaming, about dreams fitting together & making a
mandala" and as I was thinking this there was a box floating nearby.
I was writing dreams, drawing picture of dreams on dream fabric for
later, and putting them aside.

Next was me sitting on the grass under a large orange floating disc
of fabric, it was like sail cloth, so the daylight came through it.
I was writing dreams and bringing people into dreams. Sometimes this
fabric disc was slowly turning...

Now I was sitting under a large tree with great leaves which
filtered the morning light to a shimmery cool green, like the tree
was absorbing the warmth from the sunlight but it was a nice
coolness, I liked it. I could smell the earth. In front of me I had
a white circle, it was covered in dream fabric. There was a box
(different one) floating near me, and as I was looking at the dream
board I would hold my hand under this box of dreams and the right
piece would float out and come into my hand. Then I would add it to
the dream board.

Then I was in a field with a road alongside it. I needed a white
game box, just one that was blank, to put the dream in. I had this
dream in my hands and it was a very old, ancient dream mandala...I
needed a box to keep it safe.

I Found the Cave :)

Oct 7, 2005

I've had this baby cold for a while, I thought it was just going away. Then someone takes flu medicine, and it doesn't work...my cold gets worse. I'll take echinacea so that no one else catches it :)

For the first time in quite a while I slept until I woke up, no one woke me...So now I know, I need to be sick to be left alone when sleeping. Maybe I'll be sick more often :)

I guess I had very much to do there, so many dreams left unfinished...just laying around here and there. Well, really they were everywhere. Many are finished as well, but they are here too. All of these dreams I remember now that I'm in this place.

I don't write my dreams anymore unless I find them important in the sense that they are unfinished or they are a part of a larger dream. But here they all are. It's like being in the stock room for Indian textiles, clothing and such...colours and patterns of dreams, so many that I can't see where I am, what's behind them. I feel like it's a mess, there's way too many dreams in here. So I start cleaning them up.

I pick up one about this chipmunk, and as I look at it, it looks like a piece of fabric with an animated scene...and I remember, "oh yeah, I was 7, and I had this dream at Uncle R's". I get the feeling and memory of the waking time. He lived in a trailer in VT. I remember the woods around and this path with an old shed. And there was a really big nest of yellow jackets in there that I found and when he tried to get it down he was swarmed and got stung really badly. There was no phone and the nearest neighbor was far away, and I had to run far to get someone, and my lungs were burning and my legs felt like lead after I stopped running. And they got to him in time.

I'm holding this chipmunk dream, and dreaming the day memory in this dream where I stand. I almost got lost in this memory dream, but as soon as I realized that I was getting sucked into it, I folded it and was not carried away by it.

So I start going through these dreams, dreaming the day memories, then folding them up. I have a bunch to get rid of, and just a few that I would like to look at again before I toss them. But what will I do with them? Where can I get rid of these old dreams? And I almost got sucked into that thought too...and said, No...I want to see where I am...back to it...

Some dreams I find are silly, but the dream leads to a day dream that's pretty bad, and I am seeing things that I didn't remember. Some dreams don't have a whole day memory as a scene, but they only have an image in their day memory.

The ones I want to toss, as I add more the pile doesn't get any bigger, it's like they are fading from the bottom of the pile. That's cool :) And a flash of fear that I will loose the ones I want to keep...and then laughing at myself because that will make it happen...

Some dreams I keep are the ones where there is fog between this dream and the day memory dream.

There are these odd dreams, 3 of them, of things that I don't know about, and they have no waking day memories, they feel like thicker fabric, like canvas and not the Indian textiles, and they are not animated.

There are figures in them who are looking at me. I won't describe them because I don't think I should, but it's like one more insideout...with these canvas dreams, they are a dream which I'm holding in this dream, but they are not my dream, they are the dream of these figures I see, and they are seeing me, I am part of their memory? It's not like that though, it's like they are watching me, in my dreams. And now they know that I see them. They come with a feeling, it's a feeling I remember, and it is soothing...it starts in my heart and spreads out through me.

The dreams that are still scattered about fade and I have these three dreams and those that I wanted to save for later.

I see where I am, it's that cave I've been looking for. I hang the three dreams and put the others aside. I lay down on the floor and look up. This is what I've been looking for, the lines of the rock there and I can see pictures in them. These pictures are not a dream.

Now I am awake, I slept for 12 hours, and I feel like I was pressed through one of those old hand crank clothes wringers. Not that I'm drained, but that most of the static energy has been squeezed out. 

Porch Dream

Oct 3, 2005

I find myself in this damp earthy place, there is a brick wall to one side, cinderblock style, but each brick is as tall as me and the wall is two rows tall of them. The floor is earth and there are very large wood beams above me and the other walls are wood, very large boards. And I am hungry, so I'm looking for something? lol...sorry, this was too funny and it makes me laugh...ok, back to it.

There on the beam overhead is suddenly spaghetti hanging on a nail...and I was happy that there was food here. Then I see a chair, a regular size...and I get it, I'm really small in this dream place and I'm under a porch, haha...and I started laughing in the dream too

I'm laying on the earth under the porch laughing and when I stand up it disolves, everything including me? I am still there, but I'm not in anything, there's nothing there and I just see _?

And I can feel this feeling that feels like _? It's huge, it has everything in it, this feeling, but it's flat. It's coming out of me from my middle like a flash but it doesn't come from me, and there's no middle of me for it to come from. I woke up because it scared me. And my heart was very fast and I don't think I was breathing. As I woke, and I had a breath it felt like I had been under water for too long.

Disc Dream - Dream Re-entry

There were 3 really large wheels floating in this black space. They were turning in different directions and they kept changing colours but were mostly orange gold. Their meaning was explained to me, but I just can't remember all of it yet. The one on the left was the wheel of life, the center one was the wheel of time, and the one to the right I can't recall. It was really important though. Something was being explained to me.

These wheels were not solid, but seemed made of liquid air mixed with light. Like if you put your hand into them they would shimmer, and you may feel the substance, but they were not solid. They looked like a disc, not a wheel with spokes at all. And there was a pattern showing through them, but as the wheel turned the pattern didn't move even though it was part of the substance of the wheel.

• Sep 20, 2005

I was on the top of a stone building, it resembled the capitol building in a way with the domed roof, but it was all whitish stone and there was a flat place on the top. When I was on the top of this building there was earth under my feet, and when I looked down the whole thing looked different.

Looking down there was no drop like I was up high...instead what I saw was just the ring of whitish stones that I knew were the top of this dome, but from this view they looked like they were a ring of small stones in a flat place that was all earth. Like a clearing, but I couldn't see what was around it, it was darkness.

There was a fire, and somehow there was music and I was dancing by this fire, but it was a certain dance. And then from this dance I was able to leave my dream body and go to another 'level'. It seemed upwards, but then even though I had left my dream body I still had a form that was 'me' but not solid, but I could still feel everything, maybe even more than in waking. As I was halfway like still touching the first dream body, my star friend was there and reached to take my hand and help me up.

I was so happy to see him that I almost forgot to ask, but I did ask him what was the third wheel/disc, was it space? Then there was someone else there too, and we sat around a circle, which made a triangle with 3 of us, and they began to tell me...as they explained. images of the 3 discs appeared floating kind of above us but inbetween us. One inbetween each two people making us a circle instead of a triangle. They were small, like 2 ft across and they were just an image like a diagram to help explain. The discs were spinning like how you may spin a penny, but much slower.

So My star friend and the other person told me that the time was the same as space, they are not two things. And that the the third one is hope, which is made up of belief and truth. (I don't know if I'm explaining this well...) As they are telling me there are images of the words Truth, Belief and Hope and the disc is radiating this gold/yellow light...it was really cool looking :) The other person said that it was very important to know my own truth. I was confused by this because I wondered if truth was actually the wheel, but they said no, knowing your truth is how you get to there. and that belief is trusting your inner knowing, not questioning it, but knowing your truth is how you reach the place where you have no doubts, then you can believe

I asked them what am I supposed to do with this, am I supposed to do something in waking, and they told me that it was just what I need to know now...they would not expand on that. I asked if there were three sun discs in waking and my star friend put his finger on my mouth to tell me to be quiet...

~~~ the rest is left off, because it is not to be shared...anywhere

The Wheel of Time

Jul 4, 2005

This was a very indepth dream, but I was woken by my kids who wanted to play 20 questions :)

All I held was this;

There were 3 really large wheels floating in this black space. They were turning in different directions and they kept changing colours but were mostly orange gold. Their meaning was explained to me, but I just can't remember all of it yet. The one on the left was the wheel of life, the center one was the wheel of time, and the one to the right I can't recall. It was really important though. Something was being explained to me.

These wheels were not solid, but seemed made of liquid air mixed with light. Like if you put your hand into them they would shimmer, and you may feel the substance, but they were not solid. They looked like a disc, not a wheel with spokes at all. And there was a pattern showing through them, but as the wheel turned the pattern didn't move even though it was part of the substance of the wheel.

Thoughts...

Jun 28, 2005

Food for thought...

I'm reading, and it says..."vibration has 3 factors: size, rate of oscillation, and it's relation to fixed time."

Ok, so time is not fixed in dreaming, right? Therefor, either vibration in dreaming should not have any effect...Or, the way to pull in the key is maybe once we get the vibration we want in waking and can transfer it into dreaming, the missing element here may be finding the right time in dreaming to alter (or hold) our vibration...do you follow me?

So if we move in dreaming into a plane that is very fast, it will in turn alter our vibration frequency to a much higher rate, correct or do I have that reversed? So it may be good to try a slower/faster vibration to mesh it with the dream time and it's the blend of our created vibration and dream time that maybe will shift things...but how does the size factor in?

RC's Ball of Life Dream

Jun 12, 2005

This is really cool...

My daughter RC. is 8, and she has the best teacher, Mr. M. She really 
loves him. He plays guitar and sings with the kids, and he is an 
amazing teacher. 

Mr. M. had a cold, and last Monday it turned into pneumonia which 
landed him in the hospital. As of Friday he was still in the 
hospital.

So this morning she told me she had a weird dream...
She said it was a hospital and school, but they were kind of in the 
same place, like hooked on. She was out in the playground for a 
really long recess and then her dream friends came and the one with 
the 'mysterious' voice (that means she can't tell if it is a girl or 
boy) was telling her what she needed to do next.

She said she had to sneak through the school part, but her dream 
friends would cover her if someone else came. She said that the 
sneaking part was a little bit scary. But then she was walking all 
around in the hospital part and she had a little orange ball in her 
hands (she curved her fingers to show me about an inch and a half) 
and she said the weirdest thing was that the mysterious friend 
called it 'Life'...the voice told her it was Mr. M's life and she 
needed to give it to him. So she went into the hospital room where 
he was and saw him.

Then she said, "and it was like...poof!...he was in the school part 
and so was I and he was ok, and he gave me back the ball"
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This being Saturday, after she told me the dream, and we talked 
about it and what it could mean, I let her call Mr. M's house to see 
how he was. Well, he got home late this morning because last night 
his fever broke.


Now I just need to find a way to teach her discretion when choosing 
who to talk about dreaming with. I hope that she doesn't go through 
what I did...but she's a dreamer.

The Sugar Bowl Noise... (RC is my daughter who was just 8 at the time)

May 31, 2005

This morning I was pouring sugar into a crock. We use raw sugar, so it's large granules, and I keep it in a stoneware crock. It sounded a bit like a smoothed out version of TV fuzz, or rice pouring. RC was standing next to me and got frightened by the sound. She covered her ears and told me that she didn't like that noise. She said it was the noise from her dreams when she makes noise and calls out saying "no, I don't want to..." in her sleep.

I have asked her many times what she was dreaming when she did this, but she couldn't remember. This popped the memory for her. She talked to me for almost an hour (I had to cut her off so I wouldn't be late for work!)

She was very animated. She said the noise was a greyish/whitish place that was all fuzzy, (I asked her if she could see this place, or if she was in it ) she said that the noise makes her go there, and that there is a hum. Now she is standing in front of me rubbing her hands lightly together to create the fuzz sound and humming, I think the note G. She says that the humming is there just like that too. Then she says she doesn't like going there because it's scary...there are other people there, and when you go you feel like you are on top of them, like you might land on their head or something, but then you cant touch them because there's this much space (she holds her hands about 6" apart) between everything. "It's like I'm trying to hold on to them and I can't touch them and I'm just floating but I feel like I'm going to fall because I can't balance. But I can't touch them because they are this fast (she rubs her hands very fast, and keeps doing this while she continues) everything is so fast like this, and I'm so sllooowww (and she does it slow with her voice and her hands) so if I try to touch them I just would slip off. I don't like it there, but I can make myself go there if I want too..."

I am fairly sure this was one of the first double dreams I found myself in...

Apr 28, 2005

I was in a cave, or a room. It was almost an inside-out room, like I knew that what was inside was much bigger than the out side.There was a hill, long & narrow, in front of me. It was a moss path along the top of this hill.

Ok, here's the thing...it was just like a path and I was supposed to walk across it, but then when I looked at it it was layed out like a path at the same time as it was upright and looked like a tree trunk.

Then there was an opening just where the branches should be. This opening was inside out too. It was square and resembled a base-ball base, solid like stone and really old, and yet open (as in nothing being there) at the same time. J (a small child from when I was 13) was inside of there somehow. I went in to get him out or help him find something, or hide something. It was like a tomb inside with all this ancient stuff...but then the police came & somehow I pulled it off that I was checking things out because someone had left a pack & jacket in the tree (I don't think he could see anything but the tree), but there was a very old book I was holding & wanted to sneak out to read. I think I hid the book because I left with thoughts of coming back sometime.

I was in and out of lucidity in this dream...but what was odd was how everything seemed to be really two things.

Here's a rather interesting dream I had in 1992

~ Something was happening to the world because of the O-zone, so we needed to do something like an experiment ~ we exploded something that made time pass extremely quick. Then we were all in tents that were made thermal ~ the seasons were passing quickly ~ I went out to see something and D (my boss at that time) told me to get back quickly because it was raining & that meant it would get very cold any minute, K was in our tent with the girls, T was very quiet ~ we were going to have to stay in the tent until time slowed down, but it was cleansing the earth ~ by the time it slowed down the earth would be clean & healed because it would be as if millions of years had gone by with no one to harm it.

• Apr 18, 2005  Echo Dream

I was in a space with the same diffuse lighting, maybe another stone room but I didn't try to find out. What caught my attention this time was an echo. I was singing with the echo. It was really cool, and I was able to create a harmonic by singing one note at a time and with each note it was weaving a song in the echo.

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This is another kind of dreaming...This is in an email from a yahoo dreaming group...so I had no control over the dates and times

• Mar 28, 2005
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"removed name"

@yahoogroups.com
From:	removed name@yahoo.com>
Date:	Tue, 29 Mar 2005 02:38:53 -0000
Subject:	[removed name] Re: return to the grove

Haha, am I dreaming? All of my emails have the right time and date, and then this...

Is this Monday? Very funny yes?

~~~~~~~~~~~

Mar 29, 2005

I live upstairs of a pre-school, and at 2:40 am the school fire alarm went off. The really big kind which calls the fire dept., really loud with flashing emergency lights. Uncanny that it matches the false time of my 'am I dreaming' email. We jumped out of bed, grabbed the kids and went outside, but there was no fire. The fire dept. didn't come, I had to call them from a cell phone. They said that the lines had been knocked down in the blizzard and they are trying to get them fixed.

Couldn't sleep after that so I thought I'd share...not so funny now :(

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2005 Lion's Circle

I was dreaming many things, not quite lucid until I was in a hallway. A large stone place with stone walls. I thought maybe granite, when I went close to touch it it was like this, very pretty with the tiny sparkles in grey stone...cold and dry. I couldn't see any seams or cutting so I think it was a natural hall of sorts. I wondered which way to go, it looked the same in both directions and I knew I may not get back here to see what was at the other end. So I just stood with the stone looking at everything to see if I could find a reason to choose one way over the other. Nothing gave me a reason so I decided to go -->  this way. I was thinking how silly it was for me to try to choose a direction in a place with no directions...no way to tell N,S,E,W...no future. past...no been there, haven't been there. Places like this only lead me to the place I am supposed to go and there is not really a choice, it's an illusion. So I just walked --> There was not any light, but it was not dark and I could see everything clearly. I did not see the opening until I was almost into it. I stopped in the opening to look. I saw a large circle with something in the middle and a floor that was stone, everything was stone, and all around the circle were spaced stones that were seats, and on each one was a lion. I was looking to see if it was created from one piece of stone and I heard "Elew, come in, we've been waiting for you" but there was no one there but the lions. So I went into the circle. I looked around and the lions were just looking, then I noticed a man standing inbetween the two lions to the left of the hall I had just come from. I thought I should go ask him if he is real, but I wanted to see the third lion. I walked to the lion and his eyes were so soft. I cannot describe what I felt. I reached up to touch him and he was warm, very alive feeling. He reached a paw out and pulled me to him, up onto the seat...

Then my daughter woke me up..."Mom..."

I hope I can go back to the circle some time and find out why I was supposed to be there.

I have been in many different dreaming groups where I tried to keep a journal...saved my dreams to email...as well as in regular paper journals...and I even write them in a journal which I keep in the dreaming places.

However, it has become increasingly difficult to locate specific dreams when I find the need to share them with someone. Or when I need to look back to see when a current dream stems from or relates to a past dream. 
How often did that recurring dream happen?
Oh, that dream I had years ago was precognitive, and now it is happening...
Hey, I dreamt something so similar, let me try to find it to show you...

So anyways, I am going to add alot of my dreams here. They will be dated, but may not be in any time sequence because I am gathering them.
But...in the end, I am doing this for myself, not you...so that does not really matter